Monday, May 9, 2011

D. O. N. E!

What cancer does is, it forces you to focus, to prioritize, and you learn what's important. I mean, I don't sweat the small stuff. I used to get angry at cab drivers. It's not worth it.... And when somebody says you have cancer, you realize it's all small stuff. And if it weren't for the downside, everyone would want to have it. But there is a downside.

 ~ Joel Siegel




port....
The second chemo was over, I started to think of all the things that needed to happen in order for this to be over.  I wanted that clear CT scan, which I got (Praise Him!), and I wanted this thing outta my shoulder.  My oncologist suggested that I leave in for a while...just in case. JUST IN CASE WHAT?!?!?!? THE CANCER COMES BACK?!?!?!? Yea, I don't think so crazy man! For those of you who have never had a port, you don't feel it at all, it doesn't bother you, yo can hardly see it, and it doesn't interfere with everyday activities.  So why take it out? Because I would rather not be reminded of it every single day.  I am so ready for things to go back to normal, I can't even begin to put it into words.  The port is the last and final thing, once that's out, I'll be DONE!! Won't have to go back to a doctor or hospital for the next three months!  I want my life back and I'm willing to take it back by any means necessary! I've already made a couple changes I never thought would happen, I'm moving back to Savannah......REALLY?!?!?! Who woulda thought :o) I've completely re-assessed my life and where it was heading and had to make some hard decisions....really hard.  I've had a lot of support in all this, which has def made these decisions easier, but what it all comes down to is.....this is MY life, it's the only one I have.  I can't waste anymore of it doing what everyone EXPECTS me to do, I can't continue to worry about what people will think about the choices I make, because they are MY choices.  One thing I have def learned is...LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO JUST FLOAT THROUGH IT! If you want something, go out there and get it...if you don't want something, get rid of it...tell the people you love, that you love them, everyday...learn to say NO, you can't please everybody, I learned that a while ago, but forgot it somehow (that person is now back in my life so I'm in the process of re-learning, going pretty well I think...spanx, <3 u :o) )...go against the grain, it's more fun that way...stop every once in a while and smell the roses, whatever you were rushing to will still be there...when you wake up in the morning, smile...don't work to hard, it's not that serious (unless you are my doctor or surgeon...then it is that serious!)...read a book instead of watching tv, there's only so much space in your brain for 16 and pregnant (no offense to those who love that show!).  My point is this, you never know where your life is heading, you never know what's gonna happen, and you can't control any of that...no matter how hard you try, no matter how hard you want to.  What you can control is how you react to what happens.  So react with a smile...a big one and continue to live your life....not someone else's idea of your life, but YOUR life..cause that's EXACTLY what I'm about to do...and I'm gonna enjoy every single second of it!!!!!!!!!
 SCREW YOU CANsER.....I WIN :o)


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~Don’t be afraid to keep moving on,
For what was before, now has gone,
God wants to accomplish so much more,
But we need to move forward in the Lord.~

Based on Isaiah 43:18-19


~TRUST HIM~




THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO CAME OUT FOR RELAY!! IT WAS TRULY AN AMAZING EXPERIENCE & I CAN'T WAIT FOR NEXT YEAR!!!!


















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